Spender Mooso...

Most everyone knows about my relationship with Spencer. As he describes it, "Physically and psycologically abnormal." I say that sums it up pretty well. We both came to the conclusion that we both like it like that. It keeps things way more interesting. I love this boy! He makes me smile. He makes me laugh. He makes me feel safe. I love it when I feel like I am his and only his. I love the way he shows me that he loves me and he cares about me and he listens to me when i ramble on and on and on... usually mostly about myself. And it helps that he is so handsome and has a cute butt too.... I have failed to tell him this because I at times I think it might do more harm than good. The other day I came to the conclusion that I was going to tell him and then I talked to my family.... I know that they have good intentions and they are just trying to help, but they really know how to shoot me off my high horse (especially one of them in particular). How do you know the difference between being in love and wanting to spend forever with one person and being in love with being in love? Any good answers? I don't have one either, but until then I am going to continue singing this song every time I am with him....

MIA?

So I do realize that I have been totally MIA from the blog scene for quite sometime now... But I am hoping to turn that around. I have been in deep thought about my life lately since recently I feel totally and completely unorganized and unfortunately stagnant. I have been contemplating those things that I do well and those things that I could improve. Unfortunately, my "improvement" list outweighs my "doing well" list by far... I have always been horrible at keeping a journal and I can't quite bring myself to sit down and write just yet, so I feel like if I pick blogging back up it will be a nice segway into "real" journal writing. And.... since I don't talk to my family much these days because someone with two little babies is occupying all of their time, they can just catch up with life via amythecougar...

These past couple of days have been totally exhausting and I am not 100% sure why, but I am pretty sure that I looked really sexy at church today so that made up for a little bit of my anxiety. Anyways...
My life these days is predominantly taken over by nursing school, which is miserable, but I just keep telling myself it is going to be worth it. I read constantly and I am never finished and no matter how much I read and no matter how study my teacher has still managed to tell me that she is going to slap me twice. I get up at 4:30 on Thursdays and head to Salt lake to work in the U of U hospital. I love the hospital. So much better than the nursing home and U of U is incredible. I think it's safe to say that when I am there I feel pretty legit, but it is also equally safe to say that I am scared out of my mind. This past week I was in the nuero unit and I watched a guy have a seizure and the week before that I watched colonoscopies and bronchoscopies all day long and got to put in an IV... Way cool. You may think I am kidding, but I am not at all. This next week I actaully take care of a patient all by myself so lets all cross our fingers that I don't kill anyone.

Gosh. Writing in a journal is so hard... I have no clue what to say.

One thing is for sure. Evertime I leave the hospital I am so grateful that I am happy and healthy... for the most part. I can handle a little acne and little bit of pudge around my midsection. I see some cards that people are dealt and it is so sad. I see families that have to go through these horrible sicknesses and diseases and it is so horrible. I am so excited to be a nurse to help these people and to serve these people and to hopefully make their experience in the hospital just that much better.

Well Spencer just got here... Yes he is back in the picture. So I would really appreciate it if we keep this a judge free zone and just accept that I am happy. Love my family. Love my life.

p.s. "Dear mom and dad please send money. I'm so broke that it ain't funny. Don't need much just a little to get me by..."

My Sister

I know this is a little early, but I just wanted to send a birthday shout out to my favorite big sister Kristi. I want you to know how much I look up to you and appreciate your example. You are so lucky to have such a wonderful husband and children. I hope I can be as cool as you one day. I love you!

Weekend at the Mabin... (Mansion/ Cabin)

This past weekend me and about 25 other people went up to my friend's cabin in Park City and it was so much fun!!! This huge cabin was on top of a mountain and overlooked all of Park City. It was beautiful. After you drove for 45 minutes on the freeway, you had to drive 20-30 minutes up this huge mountain on a dirt road. There was no else around. It was awesome. Kinda scary if you ever needed help, but still awesome. What do you do at a mansion/cabin all weekend in the midle of nowhere you might ask? Oh well let me tell you... We found plenty to do. We got there at about 10 o' clock and we all jumped in the jacuzzi. Very tight squeeze...

We had a dance party. Huge success! Someone asked me if I was on the dance team in high school... What the? Oh and I guess this is about as good as time as any to introduce you all to Spencer... I know what you are thinking "He is sexy". This was the first time that all of my friends really hung out with him for an extended period of time and they all really like him. Let me share with you a few of their quotes that I thought were really funny. "I could not have picked out someone more perfect for you" and "When you guys are together, it is like a total show. It is just mesmerizing to watch you two together." Interesting...



Even my friends were trying to get all up on that...



Then of course it was time for me to whip out my onesie. Very sexy if you ask me. Pay special attention to my deformed leg. I swear it is not broken.






In the morning, we ate pancakes and decided to take a nature walk. I put together, at least I thought, a nice bouquet, but all of my friends thought it was ugly... As we were going through pictures after the trip, my friend called this the Amy show. I swear I am trying to be humble, but it is not always easy...




I tried to wear my best hiking apparel and shoes...




And of course we had to take a photoshoot...







Next, I would like all of you guys to look at these next few ppictures and pay attention to how abnormally large I am compared to my friends... It's embarrassing if you ask me. What great genetics...





Of course, I practiced my tricks on the tramp. Dang I'm flexible...






My friends like to mock the signature Amy pose... So rude.

I Love My Mother!!!

Since I was not able to be in the presence of my hot mother on Mother's Day, I decided to write her a poem. She wanted me to share it on my blog for all to witness my dazzling wit and sparkling personality:

Oh my Mudder, Oh my Mudder
At times, I love her more than butter
She has sexy blonde locks and a bangin' hot body
All my guy friends say, "She's a real hottie!"

But of course I love her for more than her looks
Unfortunately, it's not for her knowledge of books
She has a beautiful heart and the power to see
All of the things that are best for me

My mother is one of a kind
And safe to say, my favorite of all time
She has always been an example to me
And is everything that I want to be

She has a cool style
The colors so many
Go, Go, Go Joseph you know what they say...
Just kidding. Love you.

But seriously Mom, I love you so much
Sorry Dad, she doesn't like to be touched

But basically Mom, I wanted to say
Thanks so much for everything
Your husband makes bank, go buy some bling
But don't forget to save some for me

Happy Mother's Day Mom!
I love you and miss you more than you know.
p.s. Sorry to all my siblings
I know my gift is way better than yours!!!

My Mother Just Took all of the Excitement Out of My Life...

So, first of all, I am not engaged... It was a joke. My roommate lets me wear this fake ring she has all of the time and it is so much fun.I was looking for a little bit of excitment in my life, so I started telling people I was engaged. It was fun while it lasted, but then my mother made me tell the truth. It is wierd sometimes how doing the right thing is always sooo boring. I love my mother, but it seems like she is trying to teach me life lessons through the "Boy who cried wolf" story all too often. Love you mom...

It Has Finally Happened... I'm Engaged!

It has finally happened! I am engaged! It has been the absolutely best weekend ever! For those of you who don't know him, his name is Casey Hansen and he is from Huntington Beach. He is majoring in PDBio and he is minoring in business. He is going to be an oral surgeon... So basically that means that we are going to in debt for a long a time, but we all are going to have to start making sacrifices around here... right? If you are reading this you are most likely invited... So mark your calenders for September 25 at the San Diego Temple!